This Easter Coy had gone to church early which left Evie and I getting ready at home by ourselves. We spend most mornings like this but we are typically not on a schedule so I was a little nervous how the morning would go. She did great. Stayed asleep while I got ready. Woke up at exactly the right time to be fed. Was happy getting dressed. We even had a few extra minutes for some snuggles and a photo shoot. It really was an Easter miracle. And on the way to church I cried nearly the whole drive there...Shortly before we left the house my sisters sent pictures of their kids in their Easter outfits and this year, after years of waiting and wanting...I was able to send one back of my baby. My perfect, beautiful, precious baby. I was once again reminded just how gracious the Lord has been to us. When I look into her face I cannot help but be overcome by the miracle of her life and the goodness of God. In the years we spent in the desert, as we waited to hear from the Lord and waited for answers, he provided. Through our tears and suffering, he provided. And now, as we enter into a new phase of our lives he is still providing.
Evelyn has certainly changed my life. She has changed our lives. She is stretching me in new and unforeseen ways. She is a miracle. A miracle that we waited a long time for. I never want to forget the way that the Lord provided during the years we waited for her arrival. I never want to forget the graciousness of God to bless us with her when we had finally resigned to a life that was childless. In the same way I never want to forget or take for granted the sacrifice that Jesus paid for our lives on that cross so many years ago. My suffering as I waited on the Lord seemed unbearable at times. Yet this suffering was nothing compared to God giving his only Son. And this suffering, while it was great and made me ache in ways I had never experienced before, was nothing compared to the greatness that waited for me at the end.
"But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint."
Isaiah 40:31
During these four years of waiting there were times that I did grow weary and I definitely grew faint. But through it all I continued to hope in the Lord and he would renew my strength just when I thought I had none left. He is the ultimate provider. Even in the darkest of times he continues to provide.
This Easter was especially special to me because we were able to celebrate with our precious little Evelyn. Although she is obviously much to young to know about Jesus and his love it is our hope that as she grows she will learn to love Him and spend her life in relationship with him. We pray this daily. We will continue to pray this for the rest of her life. 
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